Here we are in April and I feel like I havent made a dent in my effort. This "baby steps" effort is just not working.....I need to start taking "Sasquatch steps"!!!
My daughter came by the other day and picked up some of her stuff. I talked to her the next day and she said that she had a MAJOR anxiety attack that night. She said that it scares her and she misses me already. She said she couldnt breathe the more she thought about it and that her boyfriend almost called 911 because she was so upset and not breathing properly. He said it sounded like she was having an asthma attack.
My daughter and I have never been very far apart from each other and it hurts me to think of the pain she is going through with this upcoming separation. She has had way too much pain in her life and I want her to be happy. I myself have been avoiding the thought of being without her. I know that I, too, will probably have an anxiety attack. We are such good friends and we have been through so much together. I know we will be OK without each other but I dont know if we will ever be ready for that day.
It's not the time away from each other that bothers us......it's the DISTANCE that will be between us. It's not the umbilical cord that ties us together, it is the great bond of friendship that we have created. I can share almost anything with that girl and she seems to share quite a bit with me. I appreciate how much she trusts me with the things she tells me. I also think she is such a beautiful person, inside and out.
Chrisi, you are such an amazing person. I admire your strength in all you have been through.
I am proud of who you are and how you treat people. You have such a kind heart!
You have pulled through some very difficult situations. I pray for you every single day. I pray for your happiness because you deserve your hearts desire. I think it is time for you to focus on YOU and your health and happiness. You are WORTH IT!! Reach out for what you want out of life.....go for it! I love you so very much!
I won't be THAT far from you! I am sure you will see me more than you think!
We will need a place to park when SK is not performing!
God Bless You......You are a shining light in my life!!